Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Tuesday Ponderings....

Hi folks!

I was so encouraged to read the comments some of you left for me; thank you so much for taking the time to not only read, but respond.  I have to admit, that after I hit "Share on Facebook" and saw the blog on my profile page, I cringed in embarrassment that I had so frankly put it all out there!  Good grief!  Have I no pride??  I had to tell my exact WEIGHT!??  Aaaackk...

I'm pretty frustrated with this Blogger thing as it's not allowing me to alter the original page I'd set up last year...I need to change the Beginning Weight, and incremental goals, etc. but my computer shuts down the program when I try.  So frustrating!  And when I see that back in the fall I began this at the weight of 232 (which was horrifying enough) and now, at 15 pounds more, I just...shake my head in disgust and disbelief at my...lack of control and perseverence.  Just can't figure myself out.  Oh well.  I don't mean to be negative; this blog is about being "real", for sure, but I also want to be encouraged and encourage others. 

It's been 9 days since I began, I've dropped 10 pounds, gone to the gym 7 times, and my size 18 pants are feeling a TAD loose!  That's cool.  I'm so happy to be back at the gym; alternating days of cardio for 45-60 minutes, with days of 15 min cardio warm-up, then 30 min or so of strength training on the machines.  Planet Fitness is a great place and I'm very thankful for it!  I'm glad that Erin & I will continue a swim class together; I missed seeing those dear (old-er) people each week that attend so faithfully. 

I know I've said this before, but I have to say again how thankful I am for delicious, healthy food that is SO satisfying!  Tonight I had baby carrots w/ garlic hummus while my garlic-chicken sausages cooked in marinara.  When it was almost done, I put a heap of fresh baby spinach on top, then stirred it in and let it cook down a few minutes.  SOOO delicious!  Topped w/ a bit of grated romano cheese!  mmmMMM!  Feeling comfortably full.  I was sorely tempted when shopping tonight to buy a loaf of handmade artisan bread, fully whole-grain, but I'm so afraid that once I get that in my mouth again, I'll tear into the whole loaf in one sitting!  I LOVE good bread, especially toasted, with either sharp cheddar cheese melted on (after buttering the toast, of course) or with natural peanut butter on one slice and jam on the other.  Eaten w/ a cup of hot, strong coffee...what could be better??  Wow.  Now I'm really glad I didn't buy it!!  :D

Okay, gotta hop off here and get to the gym.  Tonight is cardio.  Unfortunately I have a very painful plantars wart right on the ball of my right foot which really affects my workout, but I'll try to just deal w/ it, and get in at least 45 minutes.  Might end up on the bike, but that's fine too.  I have an appointment w/ a podiatrist next month, and hopefully it can be easily remedied. 

Ta Ta!  Thanks for stopping in! 

This is a stack of clothing I weeded out of my dresser since I don't fit them anymore.  Hoping to put them back in before too long!  Especially my favorite Levi's! 

Friday, March 25, 2011

I'm BAACCKKK (again.)

Good morning to whomever may happen upon this blog!

As you can see by the dates, I haven't written this blog since late January, a full two months ago.  What happened during those months?  I completely threw in the towel, began eating and packed the pounds back on.  I'd lost a total of 16# and by last Sunday, March 2oth, I'd gained not only those 16 pounds back but an additional SIX!!!  Holy CRAP!!!  :O  When I got on the scales Sunday morning, and saw my weight was up to 247, I about DIED!!  And said "THAT'S IT!!"  I know, I know, I've said it before, and I'll probably say it again.  What an idiot!!  But I'm not gonna beat myself up here; already did that and now it's time to move on. 

I began eating right again, low carbs, lots of water, good protein, and back to the gym.  Lost 2# by Monday AM, lost 4# by Tuesday AM, 2# by Wednesday, another pound by Thursday and this morning I'm at 238.  Nine pounds total in these last 4-5 days.  Thank GOODNESS my body drops pounds fast like that; it's a real shot-in-the-arm and spurs me on!  I've been to the gym twice, and did swim class last night with Erin.  I have the morning off and think I'll go do swim class at 10:15am.  I'd pretty much stopped going because they are at 5:30pm which means leaving the house at 5pm, right at dinner time.  I'd run out the door saying "I left you some food, Becca!" or "I'll make us some food when I get home!" (at 7pm) so we'd end up eating late, or not having a "proper" dinner, etc.  It just wasn't a good time to leave home 4-5 nights a week. 

Re: swim class, I'd gotten the mindset that because I loved it so much, I'd never have to do the treadmill/machines again!  So my brain (and body) was very resistant to going back to those.  During my two month "hiatus", I was still in the mindset that I couldn't go to swim class, yet wasn't ready to consider doing the other workout again.  Resisted it for a while, but realized it is OKAY!  Ideally, I'll be able to do both, which will give me a nice variety.  So here's my plan (uh oh!  When I make a plan, I seem destined to fail!):  gym at least 4-5 times a week, interspersed w/ swim class.  Erin wants to continue our Thursday class so we'll do that together.  Trying to finagle a time to workout at Planet Fitness with Sylvia can be challenging but we managed it once this week so far.  It seemed REALLY good, and familiar and comfortable to be back at the gym.  :)

Well, that's it for now.  I have a crockpot of chili simmering since last night so I had two small "sample" bowls this morning w/ a dollop of sour cream for breakfast!  YUMMO!!  I only have one client today so plan to clean my house and do some wash.   Dinner will be chili, a big green salad, my moist & delicious cornbread, and a glass of wine.  Not sure about dessert...maybe some fruit.  It's FRIDAY!!!  YAAAAAY!!!  :D 

So, here are some pictures to "inspire" me!  :)
Taken in the fall of...2010 I think.


Skinny Sharon Summer 09


Beach Babe in Florida w/ Sylvia April 2009


My "Hey, Big Boy!" picture for Kyle back in summer 09 

Haven't quite come back to THIS, but getting too damn close!!  :(


A good start on my first weight-loss endeavor, Fall 08


OH!  MY!  WORD!  :O  First time EVER at the gym in July 08

No words.... except look how cute Becca was!!  Probably 07?


WOW!!  Back in the day.  This is Becca around 2 years old!


Me n' Caty, spring of 2009, my HaPPy year!  :)


Sara & I enjoyed a lovely afternoon of bike-riding.  Summer 09